This is How

We started to date. I felt your insecurities quickly starting to appear.

Our first relaxed muscle session you asked me if I cheated on you. Why in our most intimate time do you ask me those questions when you know it is not true. You got cheated on many times. Is that your way to tell me that’s what you’ve been doing to me? It’s true that when someone hurts you and you have something better than the last someone is bound to mess it up.

I let you meet my acclaimed friend that has a vagina and what did you do? As soon as we walk inside those doors to the place we both rest our heads at night expressing how we feel about each other you question faith most. On top of it you take your hands and tackle her into the wall as if she’s your girlfriend playing with her body right in front of me. You both laughing exchanging grabbing on each other forgetting I was there. Seriously what have you both just done to me? Trauma. I get life will show you who and what is meant for you but I didn’t know it was in that way.

You both added a punch to my chest, my mind, body and soul and they say forgive those who hurt you. So let me leave it at that.

I didn’t know I had to put up with this for years as you date me and start battles with me. Forget you, and forget her. Now I have to hear you both talk about your profound hate with each other in all reality you’re mad crazy about one another.

Again, forget you, forget her, because you both tested me and pushed my feelings around like they did not matter. I didn’t know I’d have to deal with you putting your flirtatious eyes on each other every time you see each other or you sneaking to put your hand on her legs acting like you were grabbing something from behind me while you drive. Forget you.

I didn’t know there would be ultimatums if I hang out with her without you then XYZ.

Crazy how the Lord works because I’m not dating you to this day nor am I friends with you. Forget her, forget you, and may you live with so much peace and pleasure. You have my blessing. Just keep away from my growth when you see me out there no matter who I’m with because I’d never do that to either one of you.